i have no work today. i shall look out for her.

***she has a new daughter by the name of isadora..and since i am a huge fan of hers..i was telling him the other day.."if we have a daughter, can we name her isadora?"..hahahahah

from the kabalarian site:

"Your name of Isadora has made you systematic and practical in all you do. You enjoy the feeling of accomplishment from working diligently at a task. Particular about your material possessions, you keep everything you own in a good state of repair, and you budget your personal finances very carefully.

You are clever in mathematics and have great patience with work of a detailed nature, such as bookkeeping or accounting. Systematic and practical in all you do, you enjoy the feeling of accomplishment from working diligently at a task. You budget your personal finances very carefully. Particular about your material possessions, you keep everything you own in a good state of repair."

sounds impressive ..appeals and fits us, the physicist and mathematicians that we are..yet at the same time having the characteristics that eludes both of us.."you keep everything you own in a good state of repair, and you budget your personal finances very carefully. "...we are really bad at these...

but it is such a pagan name with pagan origin (one meaning of it is queen of isis) , and not a very muslim name..so i have to strike it off..plus..if i have a daughter by that name, i cant call her IS..hahaha and IS, of coz is the cooler part of that name :P

i have decided to save the last entry simply becoz i am getting paranoid again. i checked and saw that someone got here from googling "*my name* blog"..and someone else i know got "*my name* xx xxxx!!!" as a nick ...ack!

i think, and i hope i am right, that this is just an after effect of a blast of a party we had. i truly enjoyed myself..i got something which brought me all the way to the moon..hahaha.. my ego stroked..would love to share it here..but due to privacy sake, i wont, ha! and just now, there was a lot of jiving and rocking..and to add to that, it was a beautiful full-moon night, so everyone got a lil madder than usual....so much so that the residents had to call the police.

but sanity had sinked in a bit now despite me still being on a high... and so i am a bit worried.

so please please dear friends, i plead, dont have my name anywhere on cyberspace if you can help it.

*thank you*

so how was the saturday spent? there were many options..the gigs, womad, shopping..

in the end..i headed down to catch my cousin lina..let me promote her..she's very talented and creative..and i have seen her works in a lot of stuffs..but the big thing for her today was that she was among the 10 finalists who got through among the hundreds of entries for the x:odus nationwide shoe design competition..really cool.



lina explaining her design


i love her whimsical design..



she dint manage to emerge as the top three....the winners get a chance to have their shoes marketed by the company..but we all were 100% behind her and sure her's was 100% marketable..now all we need is the finances ;)

from one shoe brand to another..i was at fep earlier and i simply had to drop by at gripz..where i was gripped with lust..gosh , i just salivated and drooled when i got there and had to force myself to get out of the shop..

i was actually on a mission to look for my gear for next week's 'party'..my partners in crime were not free or were feeling rather slack..so i was left shopping alone...i thought it was easy but turned out to be quite a daunting task.. havent been there for some time..and my..there were a LOT of choices..but nothing was IT..or what i was looking for.. let's just say the place is also a haven for all the trashy trampy ahlian clothes so one has to be really careful with what one ends up choosing amidst the chaos..but i know the place has potential and of coz the discerning shopper wont fail to miss the really good stuffs.. let me tell you..they are at the higher levels or floors. ahh..and another shoe story..one of these funky lil boutique shop owners complimented me on my shoes today ;)

the theme for next week is retro..which is rather boring...coz i think alot of other places have that as well..hmm why cant it be gothic..i am returning to my black phase..and if that's not it..let me tell ya..according to ME..yes me..polka dots are in, specifically black and white....why? becoz my last three recent purchases happened to be so..hahahaha

two of em..being considered for the retro thing..to go with the capri pants and my b shoes, which i so love even tho they are not the comfiest thing in the world.

hmmm....maybe afterall, it's just a case of finding clothes to match the shoes..whadya think?

at the place where i work, we have shared unisex toilets..and becoz some people just shoot without proper aiming...some colig of mine had to post a few signs on the wall of the toilets

"if you sprinkle when you tinkle,
be a sweetie and wipe the seatie"

and uhhmmmm ..we somehow always run out of toilet paper..

"as i sit in stinking vapour
some idiot has used up the toilet paper.
should i stay or should i linger?
or am i forced to use my finger?"

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my BIG thing tis morning wasnt so bad. in fact i think i did quite well..considering that the subject was a tough one.

actually last night, i was feeling real crap..but tis morning i decided to 'pysche' myself up..and told myself "happy thoughts, happy thoughts" and i thought back of those whom i thought were stars in such things in my previous life..and it really really helped..after that everything just flowed naturally.

so phew! i think i quite enjoyed the presentation myself

becoz of that, i am in that stage as i was after each bid..feeling like i need a break and basically eating snake here..

two down and three more to go..and tomorrow morning is the BIG thing..and i am not done with my preps. sigh.with rehearsals and meetings..tis week has been BUSY..

i was just too tired last nite..i slept next to the laptop..and i must have been very hungry and feeling ill when i fell asleep..

and my eating pattern has been terrible ( i need to detox and eat healthy)..i only had sotong balls for dinner last night..and past few days crackers and biscuits and whatever junk food i can lay my hands on for lunch.

anyway, as i was saying...i must have felt ill and hungry when i went to sleep last night..coz i had this strange dream..it was so clear and real..i thought i was going mental with worry. i dreamt that i went to kelantan and i had a few half boiled eggs by a roadside kedai kopi. and upon returning home, i remembered about the bird flu thingie..and it got me all sick and worried in my dream..hahaha

and more chicken stories..these are taken from ain's blog:

THE QUESTION: WHY DID THE CHICKEN CROSS THE ROAD?

MAHATHIR
You know, I am tired of all this....apa-nama.... chicken-chicken
bisnes....the foreign powers should stop intervening in our domestic
affairs and...apa nama..... just leave our chickens alone..... if they want to...apa nama...... cross the road, they should
be allowed to cross the road .. Malaysia is a democratic country,we let our chickens do whatever they want to do.... as long as.....apa.. they don't threaten the Malay unity and try to topple
the government...

ABDULLAH BADAWI
Ini semua adalah khabar angin sahaja...jangan percaya khabar - khabar
angin ini semua...biasalah ini adalah taktik pembangkang untuk memecah
belahkan perpaduan ayam - ayam semua...jangan percaya..jangan percaya....

KARAM SINGH VALIA
Seperti yang saudara dapat lihat, kelihatan
ayam-ayam itu sedang melintas jalan, mereka bukan
sahaja melintas jalan malah membuang
najis di atas jalan dan ini adalah pencemaran
yang paling hebat di maya pada masa ini.
Bapa-bapa dan ibu-ibu Ayam haruslah mengambil
inisiatif untuk melatih ayam-ayam Agar menahan najis
sewaktu melintas jalan, sekian saya sudahi dengan......... Ayam di
jalan di lintaskan Ayam di reban mati tak makan



* ok..i got to go..my baby is here to fetch me home..

yesterday while surfing for work related stuffs i found out something which a someone has done and i thought he could have been less 'selfish'..but never mind..hahah i rectified that..

but that made me more than glad to meet some old mates and friends last nite!









some things have changed, some things havent. there were old faces i was glad to see and new faces i was glad to meet ... especially one new fm moa who gave a new meaning to what another friend just said last week about jap girls..she was very nice and she was a natural soul sister who could MOVE.. and that is a compliment.

but he discovered he wasnt much a funksoul brader, prefering to stay at the side most times as all the other guys. maybe they prefered to sit back, to look at the decorations and advertisements on the wall and imagined that they were at the real thing :P

it was alrite..the girls knew how to entertain ourselves..even the newlywed one who already look proseperous and in bliss.

but of course the night has to belong to the girl in green..



adieu, my friend. have fun , live life and keep in touch!

sat afternoon..i just googled "THE NAME OF MY WORKPLACE+BLOG"...

and the results nearly made me fall off my seat!

in one google result...

" As many of you might hav known, recently "THE BIG KAHUNA'S NAME" (i.e. my boss) has been surfing our blogs and had discovered many of our secrets..."

i clicked on that blog..and the entry was about privacy on the net. apparently some of my colleagues have been spreading gossips about one or two of our 'clients' based on what they read on the blogs..gosh..i already know some but i NEVER will ever share this info about their existence or what is written with anyone of my colleagues for that matter..coz i also have my own dirty secret..hahah I ALSO HAVE A BLOG!

i am already worried about MY OWN PRIVACY...hmmm.. my 'clients' have already started toeing the line asking personal and sometimes totally irrelevant questions..it is of coz flattering but irritating sometimes ..coz the guys just giggle and get flustered more times than neccessary sometimes..so things cant get any more personal than that!


hmm..

so therefore darlings, no pictures of me here and if i decide to put any up during the moments where i forget due to vanity, rest assured they will be up only for a lil while..and no mention of my full name if you decide to link or anywhere else on your site!

muchos gracias

have been very very busy..and the next two weeks will be very busy ones for me tho i expect them to be two very interesting weeks.

anyway..the girls i used to look for when i just needed to take a break, skip lectures...and to have tea in the canteen..where we shared our insecurities, fret about our choices and laughed at the boys.



*one of them taught me a very valubale tip.."always dress well coz you never know who you are going to meet" indeed, that has been useful to me ..hahaha..and the other taught me the meaning of quiet elegance and the meaning of being as cool as a (burmese) cat.

now one of them have already gone to a land far far a way, i suppose 'settled' in the 'windy city'. and the other leaving soon for another land just as far.

and someone mentioned..we all are moving to different phases and going on our own directions..

it's a lil sad but i suppose that's life..

and when i first started on this particular site..i blogged about a friend who called me at up at midnite coz she was stranded at a foreign airport and trying to find the fastest way back..she had eversinced gone for another adeventure..and everytime she comes back we always have a good laugh at her stories. the photos here.

since i am getting settled and putting some of my own adventures on hold, i suppose i have to live these adventures through my friends :)

to have it uncompleted is very very distracting. try as i may..i couldnt get involved with charles, boyle and avogrado..so i decided..i shall get it done first..then i can do my work..or else i get crazy from the distraction.

so here they are..a selected few. the nikah to sanding.

click on for rini & nazri's wedding :)

i think they are sufficient to tell the story of the beautiful wedding..except for the dinner..i didnt really take any during the dinner.

we DID take a few snapshots during the dinner..

but we DIDNT have a photo of us :(

and we didnt take a lot of photos during dinner for several reasons..i feel not so comfy in my laced gear..i met so many people i have not met for a loong time..a few of them i havent seen in years..and of coz a few friends from the blogging world. so overwhelming..i got shellshocked..hahah yeah rite..stayed by him..coz actually he also get stressed by weddings..so must give him some support.

beautiful wedding with beautiful bride and all the details...hmmm..i want mine to be as pretty too :)

i am very tempted to ditch charles, boyles and avogrado..

and upload the wedding photos instead...aarrgh but i cant..heh..but i shall put up more sneak peaks..of the mehndied hands








*henna works by jewel :)

photos by is.

wedding thoughts are coming back to me..coz someone's getting married this sat..and i am getting excited about it..eventho it's not my turn. yet. but she had shared her wedding planning process and it's finally here. so i am excited about it.

its very very exciting intoxicating planning for a wedding. but i got to this phase right after engangement of feeling to be a guilty "bride to be"..hahah why? coz he was warning me NOT to be a minah kahwin kahwin..and when i was younger..i had even proclaimed to my mum, i will NOT sit on a pelamin or have ONE for that matter. now i want the traditional works and a nice pretty colour coordinated pelamin. heh

anyway, indiebride has a new article on it..

"So it has come as somewhat of a surprise to me that I am wearing a large, sparkly diamond on my left ring finger. ......And my dress? White. Not ivory, not eggshell, but pure, virginal, bridal white. With a train. And a veil. A long veil....
When I describe the event to people, I always try to make it sound like I got pressured into it. "I'm the only daughter of an only daughter," I'll say, shrugging. ...." People will nod, yes, of course, big wedding--makes sense. "My grandparents are getting old," I'll say, "and you never know how many more events we'll have together." Never mind that my grandparents are all pretty spry (knock on wood)--I'd rather conjure up images of walkers and oxygen tanks than admit I'm having a big white wedding because I want to"

but like the writer, i think i have come to terms with this affair of wedding planning. i NO LONGER feel like guilty bride to be no more..i just feel like cant wait to be a BRIDE meself..hahahah..i have become domesticated. i am learning to cook and definitely like the idea of nesting..


"So I'm making peace with myself about my matching baby blue toile apron and oven mitt, ..... and the Ken and Barbie aspects of my partnership... I suppose I've proved myself capable enough in the world that I can be the girly girl at home every once in a while. Perhaps he isn't alienating me from my true identity but bringing me closer to parts of it I denied in the past: the trusting parts, the nurturing ones. When I think of it this way, my old life...was more of a betrayal of myself than my new one."

i am finished with my work..and i was rushing this. very last minute coz the deadline's tomorrow as in TODAY!..i was doing this late coz i was doing something earlier which i wanted done by tomorrow as well...

hmm...anyway, before i go off.. here's a question i found in a book as i was sourcing...

it's a question..that i thought i could use..

"At what rate does the top of a person's head absorb the sun energy on a clear day if

(a) it is covered with hair (e=0.75) and has a surface area of 225 sqcm (assumed flat), if the sunlight is shining at 40 degrees angle to the vertical.

(b)he is bald (e=0.20) under the same conditions."

even got a picture of a cute bald man together with the hairy man tanning at the beach..muahahah..

too bad i wont be using it. coz it is NIS anymore!

ok, nites!

i so want to have a webcam..


*online with emok in chicago*

another reason why i want one..coz my other friends have utilised theirs to show me their shopping buys!! hahahah..but seriously it's cool esp to 'see' those far far away.

we have been an inclusive couple this weekend..hmm to think of it we have always been an inclusive couple because we just dont have many close couple friends and we dont hang out with just couples..in fact we have separate group of friends and most of them are singles..which makes us the most 'settled' among the lot..

anyway, last night..while having a meal at his place..

me: hmm...so there is a match tonite..how come your friends are not coming over?

him: becoz i aready told them tonite is for you..

me: really ah? *cant help but smile* hmmm.. but it's a big match, no? they can always come by after this..

him: i dunno..not too excited about soccer anymore..maybe it's a phase ..i am over that phase..

*i think he meant the friends coming over to watch soccer and errmm sharing his bed..hahah...not abt liking soccer*

me: oh really? only a phase..so you have many phases..eh

him: yah of coz..you know i had many..errmm but somethings will always remain constant.....like you

me: * big grin*

*we watched discovery travel as we had our dinner, and they had a programme on singapore..hahah and wot a coincidence, things from another phase of his life made a comeback..haha..they actually used two stroll songs for the background music in a segment*



he has been nice this weekend..yesterday i just called him to say i felt like crap, and he immediately agreed to fetch me . and he made me dinner :)

and on saturday, we went to watch a movie..thinking that the theatre was going to be cold (some cinemas are freezers!)...i told him i regreted not bring my cardigan. then he said he would get something to keep warm..hahah the first thing he thought of was a TOWEL! hahaha..oklah..but in the end we found a blanket selling at metro which was on sale and cheaper than the towels they had..so i had meself wrapped up and comfy under a blanket in the cinema ..* it wasnt a ginarmous one..small travel blanket, okay*..

i must have been feeling so warm and comfy..i fell asleep while watching the show..hahah but i was really tired from having to work full day on that saturday.


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* happy birthday singapore..if there is anything i love abt this place..the food has to be one of them...

i woke up this morning..and i had durians for breakfast!! my mum bought prepacked durians last nite..and i saw them when i opened the fridge. first thing i had in the morning!! and errmm.. i also had several slices of durian rolls last nite!!! ahahha..

the heatiness is setting in and my throat is feeling hoarse but now i am aready dreaming of yakun toast for tea later..heh

"Hell is round the corner where I shelter.
Isms and schisms, we re living on a skelter
If you believe I ll deceive
Common sense says you are thief
Let me take you down the corridors of my life"


last night had a great time at a hen night party..tho i must say..i was aready very very tired during dinner..hahah so i wasnt too energetic on the dance floor unlike a few sexay babes :)

the music was very retro.

which reminds me that my cd collection is gettting more and more retro by the day.i have not been buying much cds...part of the reason being i now find myself with a mess of a cd collection from having to share with my brother and from the move from old house to new house and i have also lost a few cds..so what i have now are a lot of empty cd cases..which irritates the hell out of me! hhmph...

anyway, i found one very retro cd, which i begin to like again today. something which i listened to circa 95/96

music: tricky-maxinquaye

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courtesy of my lovely colleague..i got to have a mini shopping spree at mph yesterday..he gave me $30 worth of vouchers..so my mini haul consists of a book and three mags. sufficient to keep me occupied this hols.. started reading the book on the way to work this morning. and i have to say, from the first few pages, i picked a good one.



read the reviews

Lullaby~

Always and forever
We'll be free
Always and forever
Be with me

We'll have love aplenty
We'll have joys outnumbered
We'll share perfect moments

You and me

i was in the train today and i had a conversation with a friend..and i tot i said something silly then..dunno how it came about and may sound not like how i intended it to be. which disturbed me. so later i met another at BI..i just got to meet her coz after that conversation i was in the mood for some existensial talk..girl to girl... so we talked and of coz later window shopped...and i also found the word i was looking for..."social hangup"...

tis one i must remember...for myself

"To laugh often and much;
To win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children;
To earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends;
To appreciate beauty, to find the best in others;
To leave the world a little better; whether by a healthy child, a garden patch or a redeemed social condition;
To know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived.

This is the meaning of success."


-Ralph Waldo Emerson

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last few days i have been on 'biatch' mode..hmm.. i dunno why. must be those long hours and late nights that got me all frustrated. i have held back from scolding them..becoz i actually find them to be really sweet and nice. and seventeen year olds..i reckon i should give them some slack for i remembered while i was that age, we really slacked..ya we did! even if you find it hard to believe that people in our school did. but i guess we could manage by putting all out in the last dash.. but the ones i have before me now, i was beginning to worry if they can make it.

i have told you before that i find them bright. not extremely or genius material but i have faith they can do well in life. they are vocal, they can rationalise and they are not silly muggers with no life (infact they work and play very very hard) and most show a genuine interest in learning but they are put into this system..it's crazy. they dont have a school life..they have a career. a large number of them actually do 12 hour days what with all the commitments..i am just glad i am out of the system. you know sometimes when i leave at 7pm..i see the corridors filled with them, all buried under their notes or having consultation..and these are not your final years..they are the first years! and you know there are a few cases where it gets so bad they have a phobia of the system..and some would take MCs to study for tests..if i can remember, for us, that only happens later part in life...hmm...

so i was saying,that is partly why i allow for some slack..coz fancy having to reach home at 8 or 9pm, and then having to read notes, do assignments etc and then get back the next day in the early hours.

but last two days, i was getting frustrated with one issue and i just had to let it out....oh yes i am capable of it despite my so called demure looks. i had made a boy cried with my scolding. so there. and today the backbenchers moved to the front after my first lashing..and their faces were all so mournful and solemn as if their pet had died. and i felt a slight tinge of regret..they do deserve it but inside me i was going "oh wat a biatch me, wat a biatch, biatch biatch"

*btw, i caught extreme makeover last nite..and i tot abt it..if i can have one wish i want to be a genius..ya hahahah . which is not possible of coz ....honestly, i thk they dont have to work AS HARD as someone half brilliant. unless of coz i am ubermodel gorgeous, tall and all..tho i think wud still choose to be the genius..

the programme and lineup for this year's WOMAD is out!! sultan khan, wicked aura, and talvin singh among the many..but the organisers are evil..they make it such that i cant decide which one day i shud go. shucks.

but do check out the lineup on the last day..i bet that will be the MOST HAPPENING nite..hahahah they have INUL DARASTITA, TALVIN and WICKED AURA all on the SAME NIGHT..cracks me up..maybe i shud go dat nite to witness the madness :)

music: dub la-talvin singh