"......it is not just in some of us; it is in everyone. and as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. as we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others........"~Our Deepest Fear,Marianne Williamson

i shared the above quote with a friend, Su, some two years ago (2003), when we first read that quote together from a woman's mag, i think her eyes teared, and she told me her dream. her dream has yet to be realised, but i think in the last one year, she had indeed grown. i just want to have it up here as i do some reflection of my own...and i think it makes a good start to a new year for me to remember it again.


i have also been meeting up with some old friends and getting some invitations. few nights tis week, today and the next week. it's meetups that happen i guess when we realise we need to take stock of ourselves and our relationships, or maybe its the time, a new year or an old one ending that we see people wanting to reconnect. a lot have changed though some had not. and i have met and spoke and opened up to friends whom i wouldnt have wanted to share some of my stories..

and i told a friend whom i have known for years, why it is easier for us to share more now, coz i guess we realise we are normal. all of us have the same fears and insecurities. if you can see through people with all their fears and insecurities, someone told me, you can probably be somewhat more forgiving. and nothing about me is exceptional. if i am a sad case in some of my stories, so are others, maybe they just dont want to tell me theirs;

yet at the same time, i think everyone is capable of leading extraordinary lives. my friends who have the chance of travelling far and wide, to places that i can only dream of, at times when few can go..i would want to envy them for leading such lives. then i think for the rest of us, going through day by day is itself a miracle, and if we can have it, nothing less than extraordinary, as cheesy as it sounds, like its coming from a self-help book. but our days will be so if we know ourselves what make them so.


i know mine have been, becoz of you. the journeys that we shared, the ones we are going to discover and the new dreams that we set together. life has been, and will be..




be happy. 2005.