you know the raya season is over..ok, christmas is coming but i dont particularly care in fact it is such a hassle to go in and out of town now with the terrible traffic and human jam..i rather stay at home. and worry...

that my holiday is going to end, and now my worry is on my work. that i have been so off it, i have to slowly get back in the groove. tho i cant pin point exactly what i should worry about it but i still worry. crazy.

when i start to worry about work, to tell the truth , i sometimes see my wedding as a huge boulder like i need to get it done and over with, remove that boulder so that i can move on with life. maybe as long as it is not over, it will always be in my subcounsious.

and i think i am a worry wort. i can stay in bed and have this thoughts worrying me so much so i cant sleep.and sometimes they disturb my sleep and i have dreams. and then i will develop ulcers.

he, on the other hand, doesnt seem to get too stressed easily..coz he's the type who deals with things when it is time to deal with it...then he will get really stress. and i have to stay away. i stress myself way ahead while his is a JIT (just-in-time) type of stress. which is better? just different styles..

which we have to deal with sometimes. coz i can be the type that go "ok, let's look up this thing, coz we have to plan for this..and make sure that we dont get into... so that....." while he will like tell me, not now, we will cross that bridge when it is time to cross it.

i dont like to worry so much, coz it can make life miserable, my heart weaker and i heard can die earlier..hahahah..i try to but i cant help it sometimes. maybe it's natural for women to worry more.

"You know that a man must have written that song "Don’t Worry, Be Happy." If a women had written it, it might have said "Worry and Be Happy." "

for his sake tho, i have already warned him..now he will have to adapt and try to handle two worriers in the house next year!