i am feeling really bla ..so i shall ramble..freeflow and on nothing in particular

this week, we decided to watch a movie coz i had not caught any movies at all this hols.
and the movie we watched was 'japanese story' simply because..it was the earliest one available and it suited our timing. unfortunately,it was not the glitzy escapist or feel good hollywood movie i realised i wanted to watch. when sandie got on the japanese guy and later when they continued to frolick in the aussie outback, i just found the scenes comical somehow..maybe it was just me that day. because of that i decided to search for the shrek (1) vcd after that. yes, i have yet to watch that one then. we found it at 4.90 at hmv...

shrek is adorable..i love him. he doesnt give a damn what others think of him..anyway, you know they had that song in the beginning..was it by smash mouth..and this line going on "not the sharpest tool in the shed"...recently i felt that way. like really dumb. and i feel lousy. things that make me feel lousy..will be when i find myself being rude, lazy, having crap skin and coming across dumb. the worst thing someone can think about me is therefore "god, she's an empty vessel" hahah maybe i am exagerating..but let me. i just feel like whining.

i am attending this two days counseling course..and although the pace of the course seems to crawl..some parts of it were interesting. particulary the sharing session. what i realised, there were some of the staffs, that the kids find easier to tak to and had become agony auntie of sort. what i like, the staffs are professional and adhered to being confidential about the cases..coz some places i had been to, the staffs will just rattle on about this kid or that having this problem and that. which is not good..

inevitably there was of course the sex talk..and during my time we just refer it to 'bgr" but now we decided that is a bit old fashion..now it includes 'bbr' and 'ggr'. move with the times. tho i think the 'bbr' cases are more common..we talked about a few cases and the best way to handle them.

not surprisingly it seems when a guy decides to join the brotherhood, it appears that when we study his profile, he will tend to be the youngest or the only son in a family of girls...which, i have told him many times, statistically it seems my phyz could have a good chance of converting. especially since he was from a boys school! and especially since his sisters with glee had told me several times how they made used of him to be their models when they play act! ..hheheheh but i am pretty sure he got his inclination right..

tho i do really get all jealous and possesive whenever his friends errrmm..get to stay the night at his place..or he stays at theirs..which is very often! especially this month! yalah, soccer season..errm but i had told him, whenever i call and find out about his plans for that night, to just tell me straight and come out of the closet. teasing of course.