one of my colleagues was lamenting on how more than half of her cohort has left. i think she was feeling depressed coz she just went around talking to people openly about it. and her voice is loud. and this was the place where i tought a lot of people just grinned and bear it. really.


anyway she made me thought of how i would feel if i was in her position..that is after 5 years in service...and the conversation in the office that soe of us had that day..

"if you are thinking of getting rich, you shouldnt be here"

THAT's TRUE

"no, lah..you can earn quite a bit."

WELL..IT ALL DEPENDS WAT. FOR PEOPLE OF THE SAME AGE COMPARATIVELY. NOT SO..HMMM REALLY DEPENDS ON YOUR LUCK WHAT JOB YOU END UP OUTSIDE LOR

"but if you rise up fast you can"

YA..OF COZ..BUT IT IS SO CROWDED UP THERE..AND OUR LEVEL DIFFICULT. PLUS YOU ARE A SCHOLAR. DIFFERENT STORY.

"that's true. but scholars also feel stressed mah to perform"

SAME SAME. THE SYSTEM SUCKS....

" i dont have a honours" "and i dint do too well for my As"

SO THE PEOPLE UP THERE BRAND YOU FOR WHAT YOU DID YEARS AGO. SUCKS huh.

"but i dont have any desire to rise up to HEAD level. That's just another name for ADMIN MANAGER. LOL!"

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i thought over it. i am still lovin it. i love my kids. i feel pampered. i had thought of movin out to another level, another set of challenge but i think it may be more difficult outside.

but i thought about the chances of moving here. it is definitely more difficult.

but then i thought where do i move to. coz i really dont want to be a HEAD.

so what the heck do i want to do?

few years ago..i will end up angtsy.


then i look at CC. i think i want to be like him. i am happy with my core duties, and i enjoy it. and i should stick to it like he stuck to it for the last 6 years after quiting his more glam job. WHILE remaining sane and having loads of other experiences outside.

by the way, CC is my colleague who has also published several books, had his fare share of third world countries travel as he said, and was also a cinematographer for a local English movie not too long ago.


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anyway, i took a cab last week..you know cabbies love to talk...this one went on and on how you just had to pay and pay here...his advice for me..

"aiyo, lu manyak muda, pegi pakai itu computer. lu pandai kan. carik into laki pakai internet. pegik itu australia, america".

heheh he thinks i should find a husband, preferably not local and migrate. aiyo. serious, went on and on about it all the way from pasir ris to my place.

and that was my taxi ride of the week.